Funny how things work in this crazy world called "life". We learn our lessons when we are at the end of our line, sucking in every last bit of bitter detail that we have to face in order for us to survive.
To some, it is but trivial without them knowing how much it meant to you. That’s how the world works. That’s how things are.
I have been complaining that my world has been losing its color and for years, I have been allowing the gray cloud to hover over me. There’s one thing I forgot… I can not control things that are not in me.
I lost a good friend all because I thought differently. I didn’t mean to make the person uncomfortable to the point that seems to have made that person jump like a cat stepped on by the tail every time I am in the area where we’d accidentally be at the same time… though it may just be online.
I know I can not demand for closure because what I had with the person was never one for me to have the right to… but I got burned and it still stings.
I tried to forget, but it is still there. You have already moved on. I see you have found someone. For what it’s worth, I am really happy for you.
Not that I still want things how they were back then, I just hope you would stop and say hi, even for the last time, that I can help myself to say with full conviction that I will let go of all my delusions and hapless illusions of what I thought was that never had been.
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